100 and going strong...

I just noticed that I'm on post 100. I thought I'd already passed it. I considered doing something significant for this one, but it really is just a post...and I'm completely drained and can't come up with anything clever. I'm a little annoyed by this emotional roller coaster I've been on since my family left yesterday. It's seriously bizarre, I haven't cried this much (or at all) in ages. I vaguely remember reading something that emotions can be bizarre post-mono...so I'm chalking it up to that and hoping I get over it soon. I think a little extra sleep will help, I get a bit off when I don't have enough sleep. But seriously I promise I'm okay...just a little odd the past few days. I'm at the point of laughing at myself it's so ridiculous.

...side note: I finally saw Frosted Pink with a Twist, it was great. :) So neat seeing how it turned out. I have it on DVD from my boss Lily, so I'll be getting it up on here soon. (I'll even give time counts to let you know when you can actually see me)

Anyways, on a different note, I have a few new songs that I'm absolutely in love with. Here's the lyrics to one of them. I'm a little obsessed with this song, it's so great. I first heard it at the end of a really great episode of Bones, and finally got it when my parents gave me the Bones soundtrack, and it's amazing. Okay...I'll stop babbling now...

Running Up That Hill
by Placebo

It doesn't hurt me.
You want to feel, how it feels?
You want to know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
You want to hear about the deal I'm making.
You, (If I only could, be running up that hill)
You and me (If I only could, be running up that hill)

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
Get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could

You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There's a thunder in our hearts, baby

So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?
You, (If I only could, be running up that hill)
You and me (If I only could, be running up that hill)
You and me, won't be unhappy

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could

Come on, baby, come on, come on, darling,
Let me steal this moment from you now.
Come on angel, come on, come on, darling,
Let's exchange the experience

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems.

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And I'd get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems.

If I only could, be running up that hill
If I only could, be running up that hill
If I only could, be running up that hill
If I only could, be running up that hill
If I only could, be running up that hill
If I only could, be running up that hill
If I only could, be running up that hill

Falling Behind

Rushing and racing and running in circles. Moving so fast I'm forgetting my purpose. Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning, getting nowhere. My head and my heart are colliding chaotic, pace of the world I just wish I could stop it. Try to appear like I've got it together I'm falling apart...
slow me down...
Sometimes I fear that I might disappear in the blur of fast forward I falter again. Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep, I'm getting nowhere. All that I've missed I see in the reflection, passed me while I wasn't paying attention. Tired of rushing, racing and running I'm falling apart...

I often times feel that I am out of control, unable to keep up with life-the lyrics of one of my favorite Emmy Rossum songs seem to fit. I may not be falling apart (at least I don't think so) I definitely need to slow down. Things are chaotic right now, just really super busy. My list of things is growing faster than I can cross things off, it's like I'm trying to be on several different freeways all at once, going different speeds in multiple directions. (and not "easily" solvable like world problems in algebra)
I have so many things to say, but no time to say them, to formulate them into words. I need to get my life and my schedule under control. Work has gotten busy preparing for the new students moving in and the beginning of school. I'm trying to figure out if mono is the culprit for my inexplicable fatigue and tiredness, even when I get plenty of sleep. (apparently the virus will occasionally become active...but don't worry, no more swollen icky tonsils...supposedly) There are lots of little things that need my attention, piling up on me. There are people who want pieces of my time and attention, when really I wish I could have just a single day to turn off my phone and disappear from the world for a short time. (I'm actually trying to work on this) I'm much more balanced, but I feel like I've lost my center.
That being said, I'm going to follow the example of several wonderful bloggers I read, and take a short break. Not like I haven't already been taking one, I have posted in a while. I won't completely disappear, I'm still trying to get caught up in my reader. (I'm sure you may have noticed a slew of comments on a range of posts from me, or if you haven't, you will...I'm working my way through the reader) I just don't have it in me to hit "mark as read".
I'll be back soon enough though, I love my blog and can't stay away for too long. I just need to work on my writing. I do believe that it may have gotten a bit whiny as of late.
If you have a moment, please check out this blog, I found it through Sue at Navel Gazing At Its Finest. CJane has been keeping updates on the condition of her sister NieNie and her sister's husband Christian as they recover from a plane accident. The love and support of this family has been truly amazing to read about, and they can use all the prayers they can get. They also set up a donation link for those able and willing to donate to help ease the financial side of their recovery, which is estimated to be at least several months from what I gather. Thank you to Sue for bringing this to my attention. I hope you will all keep NieNie and Christian and their whole family in your prayers, if you are a praying sort of person.
I'll be back soon, consistently. And I'll have slowed down and regained control of my life. (as much as I ever can, right?)

"Killing Me Softly"

My best friend sent me a link to a journal, and one of the entries had these lyrics that caught my eye. I laughed as I read them, probably because they rang all too familiar with my life. Have you ever heard music and thought, wow, Killing Me Softly much? I do it all the time. Maybe it's because music is such an integral part of who I am, that it has such a powerful influence over my life. But seriously, some lyrics definitely make you stop and think. Anyways, here are the ones from the journal. (I even found out the song and artist they were from)

"She's been known to get a little tipsy
Prim and proper flies right out the door
I love it when my baby lets her hair down
She's an angel with a little set of horns

That girl has got a heart as big as Texas
She never goes to bed before she prays
When she gets mad she'll send a sailor blushin'
But she's a sweet as Louisiana sugarcane

Yeah, she's snow white, with a little tattoo
Her Sunday dress is just a little torn
And she may not be a saint
But I don't care what she ain't
She's my angel with a little set of horns"

song by: Willmon Trent
title: Little Set of Horns
album: Broken In