It is with deep sadness that I have to tell you that the Sultan's daughter's father passed away today. I can't even begin to imagine what she is going through right now. Bee told me tonight at mass. I don't have words to describe, but I ask that you keep the Sultan's daughter and her family in your thoughts and prayers. I will be praying particularly that she finds peace in her father's passing.
My mind is slightly less jumbled after a nice long chat with Ani tonight. I needed to talk to someone about this news, and about various things. I'm not sure how long he's been sick, I only found out last week when I posted asking for prayers for him and his family. And that goes back to the contents of the post about feeling like a double agent sometimes. And it hurts a little bit. And that's partly my fault, and partly not. It was comforting to talk to Ani about everything that's been going on, and that split that so many of you offered wonderful advice about, the friends vs. relationship. Like so many of you wonderful readers, Ani offered his own version of advice, saying that so many people don't understand that things DO change when you're in a serious relationship. And that if they haven't been in a similar situation, it can be hard to understand. He made me realize that I'm not a freak, I'm not just an idiot who can't manage to get things straight. It's NOT just me. It's partly my friends. I won't blame them, but I'll stop blaming me too. (or at least try)
I'm just a little out of sorts this evening. And very, very sad for the Sultan's daughter. I can only imagine the pain and grief, and can only wish that I could make it all go away. I think maybe I'll pray the rosary before I sleep, help focus my prayers for her and her family. It's the best way I know to quiet and focus my thoughts that run so rampant through my head.