Meeting Yourself

I've determined that my thoughts flow best at night. I'm not entirely certain if this is because it's calm and quiet under the cover of darkness, or if the end of the day tired removes the writer's block and hesitancies that that so often plague my words. That being said, I just completely lost my train of thought...

Oh there it went. You were all incredibly supportive during the roller coaster ride that defined the third month of my relationship, and for that I am extremely grateful. I know that I haven't said much after the fact (mostly because even I got tired of listening to me whine), but I can confidently say that those were growing pains...and we weathered them out. You know that old cliche where it's not the other person it's you, but when it's said we all know it really is the other person? Well in this case, the majority of it really was me. Looking back now, I can see things much more clearly. Sure the bf played his own part...but I hate to admit that I maybe provoked the reactions I got with the behavior I displayed. It's been a definite learning process. Making the decision to let go and trust someone to catch you is easily made. Doing so easily? Doesn't always follow like that. But I'm learning, and growing...and we can both feel the positive outcomes of all of our growing.

It's interesting how much you learn about yourself in a relationship. I've always maintained that it's important to know who you are just as you before you can even think about figuring out and defining you + someone else. But now, I think that's only part of it. Knowing yourself is still critical...but I'm learning more and more that learning who you are when you're with someone else? That's pretty important too. Without that you are very one-sided, and that's the opposite of well roundedness. You have to know yourself alone and in other interpersonal relationships. And it takes a lot of patience and understanding and maybe a flared temper or two, but in the end? It can be prove to be completely worth it. I definitely think this one has been worth it.